Things That Need Work. As In, Actual Effort.

In the five days that have passed since I returned from the Midwest vacation:

I have gained a few pounds. I am officially 180 lbs now. Ugh.
I have not been to the gym.
I have not rolled out my yoga mat, or (even worse) thought about rolling it out.
I have slept excessively long hours almost every night/day.
I have not called any family members or friends. I have not even returned calls.
I have not applied for any new jobs.
I have not eaten a salad, despite the fact that my lettuces were ready for harvesting when I got home.
I neglected to water my plants for four days straight, not knowing how long it had been since Kelly watered them, and ignoring the fact that it was pushing 90 degrees.
I killed my lettuces.
I went to the mall and spent far too much money on things I don't need.
I have hidden inside my air conditioned bedroom for two days straight.
I have watched WAY too many hours of television.
I have played a ridiculous number of hours of stupid online games.
I have sat on the chair in front of my computer so long that my butt hurts.

Somehow, though, I feel positive. I'm not sure why, but it's good to feel good.
I have emailed my contact at the staffing agency.
I have emailed the lady who wanted to interview me in hopes that I can still go talk to her.
I have (finally) launched my own personal blog, dealing with things outside the scope of this blog, in hopes of developing my writing skills, ability to accept and understand myself, examine my direction, etc...

I suppose the small good list is truly reason enough to feel positive. But it doesn't erase the long list of things I should do, want to do, need to do, and haven't been doing.

Remedies in the works for my Tuesday:
I will get up before noon, regardless of what time I fall asleep tonight.
I will visit the mall to return some of the unnecessary items.
I will roll out my yoga mat, and practice.
I hope to also visit the gym for treadmill and weights. (But we'll see. Tomorrow is going to be the hottest day we've had all summer.)
I will sit in a comfortable chair and read a book. (Sidenote: I'm reading A Homemade Life by Molly Wizenberg, and it's fantastic! A collection of her memories and life influences - largely about food - and recipies, too!)
I will visit Trader Joe's to buy salad greens and other healthy, simple fare.

It's not everything, but it's a start!