Breathing Deeply

So... apparently I didn't give up entirely. I was again lying on the couch - this time watching American Idol - and my body just needed to move. There was no escaping the feeling. But I really wasn't feeling like much of a workout.

And then it occurred to me. Where did yoga go? I've loved it since I was first introduced to it. But I hadn't actually practiced for months. Months! Sure, there have been some yoga moves in the pilates dvds... but not the kind of yoga that feels, well, amazing inside and out. So I put in my dvd and did two sequences from my favorite: Namaste Yoga. I picked the two I used to do more than any others... easy, good stretch, muscle strenthening, hip opening (because my hips are the least flexible hips EVER), and very meditative, and simultaneously soothing and invigorating to my soul. Seriously.

Now I am breathing fully and deeply, feel more aware, more secure. I am reminded that yoga is not just physical exercise... it's an integral part of spirituality for me. Why I let it go, I can't explain. But I'm back. Fully committed again. I can't expect my willpower to hold out and carry me through this journey of building better life habits unless I continually work to strengthen my willpower and my reason for wanting better.

This is what I was missing. This is what will help me get beyond a bad day on the couch. And this is what will keep me moving.