Still Blah-ing

So, Monday was pretty good. I did almost everything I said I would. Laundry was all clean, but somehow I left a couple loads in the machines overnight. Phone calls were all made. Cleaning was successful - with a few stray pieces I'm still getting to... but nothing big. Didn't make it to Trader Joe's, but did it yesterday. Now I'm ready to bake something delicious. I also got several payments taken care of, and ordered my books for my summer class.

But then, somehow, Monday night came and I just kind of stopped. Entirely. I don't even really know what I did yesterday. I visited Trader Joe's. I took Smooshy to the vet. And then I just kind of hung out around the house watching TV and sort of reading. I meant to stay home to keep an eye on Smooshy, as she wasn't feeling too well after her shots. But I still could've been *doing* something.

Oh, I looked at job postings. Found all of one position worth applying to. And not anything exciting. So the job search thing didn't quite turn into the extended thing I'd planned. Although, there was a lot related to it - calls and emails I should've made - that I just didn't do.

Now it's 11am on Wednesday. I'm just getting out of bed and checking email, etc. I've got therapy at noon. And then this afternoon I'm hoping to feel motivated.

Here's the hope:
- bake the peanut butter strawberry bars I saw in a magazine
- work out, including yoga
- finish putting the things away that I left sitting around on Monday night
- be ready on time and feel good when Kevin gets here after work to go to dinner

And in the next couple days, Kathryn and I will get together to build my porch garden. The weather finally seems like it will cooperate. And I need to get myself back into working out regularly, instead of this sporadic crap. And I need to send those emails and make those calls to get myself more "out there" in the job search. I mean, really. How else am I going to get anywhere? Argh.

Yeah, Argh. That's about how I feel. I'd like to go back to bed now. But it's time to get dressed and visit starbucks on my way to therapy. At least it's sunny and beautiful out. That usually makes me feel better and more energized.