And, Fail.

So after the last post, I did "consider" some of my room rearranging... but somehow didn't actually DO any of it.

Then around six-ish (I think, could've been earlier because I really don't remember) I curled up in bed, meaning to just lay down for a few minutes under my warm blanket... I was freezing and had just turned up the thermostat, and waiting for heat to kick on. Except, as is all too familiar lately, I fell asleep and didn't get up until 9:45pm. Argh.

You know, this early evening extra-long nap stuff is becoming a pattern. And a really bad one. I need to figure out how to stop doing it. It's only when I'm at my house - so if Kevin's coming over after work, or I'm going over there, I'm usually good (though sometimes there's a shorter nap).

It's always a little after Kelly comes home. I'm really not sure what it is about her getting home from work that makes me want to hide in my room... but it's becoming pretty regular. I think it's that I feel like I'm being judged - as lazy, useless, etc. Except she's never said, or even insinuated such things. Maybe it's just that when she gets home from work, it reminds me that I judge myself that way.

It's odd, too, because when I lay down in my bed at a normal bedtime hour (or even a somewhat abnormal one) and intend to go to sleep for the night, I find my bed uncomfortable and hard to sleep in. But these naps... I don't know how, but my bed feels good.

I think maybe I just need to set a more deliberate schedule for myself. And come up with some way to stick to it. Although, past attempts at that have failed.

Speaking of failing: no job progress to report... because I haven't done anything else. My references all got back to me, though, and sounded very positive.

I suppose my 15 min. of yoga this morning is better than my usual none. But my eating habits, like my sleeping habits, are totally erratic. In fact, I hesitate to even call them habits.

Blah... anyway, off to find something quiet to occupy myself with until sleep can find me again. And hoping not to sleep in too late tomorrow. Getting up today felt good, and I'd like to find more of that.