It's a second beautiful day in a row. I know that rain is coming tonight, and that this is the warmest it will be for a week. Yet it's 3pm and I'm still inside, still in my pajamas. I didn't even go to sleep until like 6:30am... woke up about 1pm. What is my deal? I love when it's nice out... I crave it and can't wait for these days to come... and the last handful of beautiful days, I've spent indoors, either sleeping or watching tv. Sure, I open the windows... but come on. What the hell is my problem? Why can't/don't (not sure which it is) I get up, get dressed, and go outside?! Argh. This is where I really struggle with myself... I mean, honestly. I'm not an idiot, and I generally try to be a rational, reasonable person. So why would I deny myself something that is not only pleasurable, but healthy?
I'm hoping that by writing this, I will push myself over the edge and just get off my ass.
Small bright spots in the last couple days: I have been doing my pilates dvds, and some yoga. And I did buy yummy and healthy salad stuff, fruits, and only "healthy" packaged frozen foods (Lean Cuisines, Smart Ones, etc.) Granted, I question the healthfulness of those almost every time I open one... I mean, low-cal and low-fat does not actually mean healthy.... it just means less unhealthy than other options. But still. Until I get myself making food from scratch more regularly (and let's face it, my lazy side is not always a fan of that) these aren't a terrible option, I suppose. And even the desserts and snacks I currently have in the house are all reasonably pre-portioned, low-cal, and easy.
News tidbits: my cousin Jimmy is coming to visit next week, for a few days. It'll be fun to see him and have some reason to get out and about. And my dear friend KZ just got laid off... which means I might actually get to see her soon! Heh. The girl needed a break... and wasn't entirely happy with her job... so it's kind of a blessing for her right now. And since there aren't going to be any good job prospects in her field anytime soon (interior design), she can kind of just take a break for awhile and focus on finishing her degree and taking care of her garden. The flip side of that, I'm counting down to the end of unemployment eligibility, and hoping that my efforts get me somewhere. This weekend, I'm probably even applying for a part-time job (WTF?!) because it's at an organization I like and would enjoy a future with.
Alright... off to do something. I hope.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Breathing Deeply
So... apparently I didn't give up entirely. I was again lying on the couch - this time watching American Idol - and my body just needed to move. There was no escaping the feeling. But I really wasn't feeling like much of a workout.
And then it occurred to me. Where did yoga go? I've loved it since I was first introduced to it. But I hadn't actually practiced for months. Months! Sure, there have been some yoga moves in the pilates dvds... but not the kind of yoga that feels, well, amazing inside and out. So I put in my dvd and did two sequences from my favorite: Namaste Yoga. I picked the two I used to do more than any others... easy, good stretch, muscle strenthening, hip opening (because my hips are the least flexible hips EVER), and very meditative, and simultaneously soothing and invigorating to my soul. Seriously.
Now I am breathing fully and deeply, feel more aware, more secure. I am reminded that yoga is not just physical exercise... it's an integral part of spirituality for me. Why I let it go, I can't explain. But I'm back. Fully committed again. I can't expect my willpower to hold out and carry me through this journey of building better life habits unless I continually work to strengthen my willpower and my reason for wanting better.
This is what I was missing. This is what will help me get beyond a bad day on the couch. And this is what will keep me moving.
And then it occurred to me. Where did yoga go? I've loved it since I was first introduced to it. But I hadn't actually practiced for months. Months! Sure, there have been some yoga moves in the pilates dvds... but not the kind of yoga that feels, well, amazing inside and out. So I put in my dvd and did two sequences from my favorite: Namaste Yoga. I picked the two I used to do more than any others... easy, good stretch, muscle strenthening, hip opening (because my hips are the least flexible hips EVER), and very meditative, and simultaneously soothing and invigorating to my soul. Seriously.
Now I am breathing fully and deeply, feel more aware, more secure. I am reminded that yoga is not just physical exercise... it's an integral part of spirituality for me. Why I let it go, I can't explain. But I'm back. Fully committed again. I can't expect my willpower to hold out and carry me through this journey of building better life habits unless I continually work to strengthen my willpower and my reason for wanting better.
This is what I was missing. This is what will help me get beyond a bad day on the couch. And this is what will keep me moving.
I've Given Up... But Just For Today
Woke up early... went to Starbucks and Target before my appt. After it I hit up two grocery stores, and did very well for myself. Lots of Lean Cuisine's (yay for coupons and store sales combined) and fruits and veggies.
But then I came home. Instead of eating any of the healthy stuff I just bought, I chose the leftover Pad Thai in my fridge. Then instead of going for a walk, I chose the couch and the warm blanket mom gave me for christmas. And instead of finishing job apps, or working out to one of Ellen Barrett's fabulous ass-kicking dvds, I chose to nap. A long nap. Which means I'll probably be up late again, make food in the middle of the freaking night, and perhaps sleep in too late.
Then again, tomorrow's a new day. And I will TRY. Try to accomplish the things I missed today. And try to get out of my own way. I have to try.
But then I came home. Instead of eating any of the healthy stuff I just bought, I chose the leftover Pad Thai in my fridge. Then instead of going for a walk, I chose the couch and the warm blanket mom gave me for christmas. And instead of finishing job apps, or working out to one of Ellen Barrett's fabulous ass-kicking dvds, I chose to nap. A long nap. Which means I'll probably be up late again, make food in the middle of the freaking night, and perhaps sleep in too late.
Then again, tomorrow's a new day. And I will TRY. Try to accomplish the things I missed today. And try to get out of my own way. I have to try.
My weekend begins! Wait...it's always the weekend for me.
Hello ladies,
This will probably be my last post until Sunday or Monday. I'll be up north and while I can use the CrackBerry, I'm not sure I feel like typing that much on the little keys! However, I'll try to check in at least once.
Yesterday and today are markedly better than Monday and the days previous. I set my alarm for 8 yesterday and woke up at 7:59. I desperately wanted to go back to sleep but I wouldn't let myself. I made the bed and had breakfast and allowed myself a little time to veg on the couch as long as I stayed awake. I actually ended up doing some long-procrastinated filing and junk mail sorting and I like that my desk is all clean. I went to noon yoga and had a great workout. After lunch I did a little job searching and applied for one. I had a quick get-ready and went to Second Harvest food shelf to volunteer for a couple hours with other Twin Cities Badger alums. Sadly, no Badger boyfriend material in the bunch but I did get another unexpected workout...moving boxes, opening cases of cans, stacking products...I broke a sweat and used my muscles. I watched tv after I got home and went to bed around 11 but didn't fall asleep until 1. Very annoying.
Managed to get up at 8 again today...I wanted to get to the gym before I go to my parents house early this afternoon. I did an hour long weight class (omg) and hit the whirlpool after. I showered at the gym too, so I didn't have to when I got home. I find I linger less at the gym. Since I've been home I've been trying to clean up so that I can come back to a spotless apartment on Sunday. Not much left to do and only a few things left to pack. I'm going to do some laundry at the folks before my mom gets home and we head out around 4:30.
Tomorrow I'm guessing I will start working on stripping the kitchen cabinets at the lake with my mom. Tomorrow night I'm going out to dinner and to the movies with my cousin Stephanie (she's 16). Friday will be more work; Friday night I'm going to the bar for drinks with my friend Melissa (our moms went to high school together and her parents still live in town; she is going up with hubby and kids for Easter). Saturday...more kitchen work and Sunday morning is Easter brunch with the fam...parents, me, two aunts, one uncle and five cousins (ranging in age 3 to 19). Easter basket hunt starts at 10 for all the kids, including me. Mine will probably have scratch off lotto tickets instead of toys. :)
That's about all I have to share. My life is kind of boring. The job I applied for yesterday looks very promising but I only found the one. Not much else out there for me right now. I will look again next week. And remind me! Make sure I do it!
Have great weekends!!
k.
This will probably be my last post until Sunday or Monday. I'll be up north and while I can use the CrackBerry, I'm not sure I feel like typing that much on the little keys! However, I'll try to check in at least once.
Yesterday and today are markedly better than Monday and the days previous. I set my alarm for 8 yesterday and woke up at 7:59. I desperately wanted to go back to sleep but I wouldn't let myself. I made the bed and had breakfast and allowed myself a little time to veg on the couch as long as I stayed awake. I actually ended up doing some long-procrastinated filing and junk mail sorting and I like that my desk is all clean. I went to noon yoga and had a great workout. After lunch I did a little job searching and applied for one. I had a quick get-ready and went to Second Harvest food shelf to volunteer for a couple hours with other Twin Cities Badger alums. Sadly, no Badger boyfriend material in the bunch but I did get another unexpected workout...moving boxes, opening cases of cans, stacking products...I broke a sweat and used my muscles. I watched tv after I got home and went to bed around 11 but didn't fall asleep until 1. Very annoying.
Managed to get up at 8 again today...I wanted to get to the gym before I go to my parents house early this afternoon. I did an hour long weight class (omg) and hit the whirlpool after. I showered at the gym too, so I didn't have to when I got home. I find I linger less at the gym. Since I've been home I've been trying to clean up so that I can come back to a spotless apartment on Sunday. Not much left to do and only a few things left to pack. I'm going to do some laundry at the folks before my mom gets home and we head out around 4:30.
Tomorrow I'm guessing I will start working on stripping the kitchen cabinets at the lake with my mom. Tomorrow night I'm going out to dinner and to the movies with my cousin Stephanie (she's 16). Friday will be more work; Friday night I'm going to the bar for drinks with my friend Melissa (our moms went to high school together and her parents still live in town; she is going up with hubby and kids for Easter). Saturday...more kitchen work and Sunday morning is Easter brunch with the fam...parents, me, two aunts, one uncle and five cousins (ranging in age 3 to 19). Easter basket hunt starts at 10 for all the kids, including me. Mine will probably have scratch off lotto tickets instead of toys. :)
That's about all I have to share. My life is kind of boring. The job I applied for yesterday looks very promising but I only found the one. Not much else out there for me right now. I will look again next week. And remind me! Make sure I do it!
Have great weekends!!
k.
Three for Five
Most of today was lazy and pathetic on the couch again. And I wondered why I constantly make choices I know are stupid, that fly in the face of everything I want for myself, that make no sense, and that are infuriatingly lazy.
I woke up from yet another couch nap just in time for Oprah. Today it was about healthy aging, and the "Blue Zones" of the world where people live the longest. The common keys to their lifestyles were so seemingly simple: healthy (mostly plant-based) diet, regular exercise integrated into daily activities, frequent and loving social contact, and having a purpose in life. Making all these things into rituals and regular parts of daily life... that's what it takes to live a long life and feel good about it.
I'm 28 now. If I don't push myself to create good habits now, when will I get around to it? If I don't take advantage of my youth... and put rituals into my life that will lead toward longetivity, health and happiness... what's the point? Right now, most of my habits are about disappearing... no, not like dying or something... but my regular behaviors involve being alone or blending in, for the most part. What good is that? Definitely something to consider further.
And it was the kick in the pants I needed today. Got off my ass and went for a walk - despite the cold. I even tried jogging for a bit of it... but that lasted all of a few minutes. I think I breathe wrong or something... I don't know what it is, but I clearly do something wrong when I change from walking at a good pace to jogging, because I get winded so quickly and my throat and nose get dry and cold. Very odd.
Anyway, good walk. Check. Pilates/yoga dvd when I got home. Check. And I made a haircut appt during Oprah - for next Tuesday morning. I've told myself that if I skip any days of working out between now and Monday, I have to cancel it. I did not finish the job applications I've already started. What's the deal on that? They're so close... just need to type in the changes and send. Stupid. And I didn't do any Office tutorials, but I did toy with Outlook's calendar functions for a bit.
Tomorrow:
1) Walk 45ish minutes
2) Pilates/yoga dvd
3) Finish those apps! And send them!
4) Hit up the grocery store for delicious salad fixin' stuff.
And I know I won't sleep in too late... 'cause I've got an appt at 11am.
And tomorrow, I'll try to actually follow through on that "less rambling" thing I said yesterday. Heh.
I woke up from yet another couch nap just in time for Oprah. Today it was about healthy aging, and the "Blue Zones" of the world where people live the longest. The common keys to their lifestyles were so seemingly simple: healthy (mostly plant-based) diet, regular exercise integrated into daily activities, frequent and loving social contact, and having a purpose in life. Making all these things into rituals and regular parts of daily life... that's what it takes to live a long life and feel good about it.
I'm 28 now. If I don't push myself to create good habits now, when will I get around to it? If I don't take advantage of my youth... and put rituals into my life that will lead toward longetivity, health and happiness... what's the point? Right now, most of my habits are about disappearing... no, not like dying or something... but my regular behaviors involve being alone or blending in, for the most part. What good is that? Definitely something to consider further.
And it was the kick in the pants I needed today. Got off my ass and went for a walk - despite the cold. I even tried jogging for a bit of it... but that lasted all of a few minutes. I think I breathe wrong or something... I don't know what it is, but I clearly do something wrong when I change from walking at a good pace to jogging, because I get winded so quickly and my throat and nose get dry and cold. Very odd.
Anyway, good walk. Check. Pilates/yoga dvd when I got home. Check. And I made a haircut appt during Oprah - for next Tuesday morning. I've told myself that if I skip any days of working out between now and Monday, I have to cancel it. I did not finish the job applications I've already started. What's the deal on that? They're so close... just need to type in the changes and send. Stupid. And I didn't do any Office tutorials, but I did toy with Outlook's calendar functions for a bit.
Tomorrow:
1) Walk 45ish minutes
2) Pilates/yoga dvd
3) Finish those apps! And send them!
4) Hit up the grocery store for delicious salad fixin' stuff.
And I know I won't sleep in too late... 'cause I've got an appt at 11am.
And tomorrow, I'll try to actually follow through on that "less rambling" thing I said yesterday. Heh.
Monday, April 6, 2009
Monday, Monday, Monday... Ugh.
I'm really wondering why my natural tendency is toward laziness. And not just some procrastination and sitting around a bit too much... I mean all-out, full-couch-flop, tv-on-nearly-48-hours-straight type of laziness. Um, yeah. I can get myself to have a good day - making job search effort, cleaning, working out, being social... and then it's like for the next couple of days I can't muster the will to get off my ass. It's not a matter of energy or not feeling up to it. I mean, when I work out I have noticeably more energy, and my body feels a LOT better.
I even made a list today of the things I'd like to accomplish - and I spread it out over the whole week. So there's just little things each day... and even unimportant, leisurely, fun things are on the list. Yet somehow, the few minor things I'd asked myself to do today... remain undone. I tried to make myself work out today... I lasted all of ten minutes. Then I ordered pizza for dinner and proceeded to eat 3/4 of it. A large chicken broccoli alfredo pizza. At least I talked myself out of the side of fries I was craving. But FIVE hours later, I'm still ridiculously full. I suppose all the water I'm drinking contributes to that... but still.
It's like I'm becoming all the things I always criticized my parents for. God, soon I'll be sitting on the couch with a five quart pail of ice cream and a spoon, shushing people for talking during my tv shows. Napping in front of the tv, waking only to complain if someone changed the channel or was too loud. Oh, and let's not forget the constant sitting... and snacking... and general building an oversized self. Ugh.
I refuse to let that be me.
Bright note: the earphones that Kevin bought me arrived today - much more comfortable than the ones that come with the iPod, and stay in my ears better too. And he called me tonight. He's having a good time... hiking in the desert... hanging in hotel hot tubs and drinking... just enjoying some new scenery. I have to admit, though, that with both him and Kelly away, I feel like I'm on sort of a mini-vacation myself. Everything is just so much more relaxed than usual, because there's really no one else to even think about.
Oh, another interesting tidbit: Jimmy called me last night. Apparently he'll be headed out soon on a ship again for a six month tour of the world, primarily humanitarian relief stuff this time. And he's hoping to come visit me for a couple days next week. It'd be cool to see him. It's been years.
Alright, the most important goals for tomorrow:
1) 45-60 min. walk outdoors (with shuffle and new earphones!)
2) Pilates/yoga combo dvd
3) Finish and submit the 3 job apps I've started
4) Complete 2 online tutorials for MS Office
5) Make appt. for a haircut
I think I'm going to try to limit my posts this week. Still each day - probably twice a day. But shorter than they've been. Skipping the self-analysis and rambling... focusing instead on action. List of important goals for the day, and report on my efforts. I want to see if this helps me focus my energy as well. Instead of overthinking and dwelling on stuff, I'm hoping to just DO things more readily. I want to create some new patterns for myself, because the old ones are pathetic.
I even made a list today of the things I'd like to accomplish - and I spread it out over the whole week. So there's just little things each day... and even unimportant, leisurely, fun things are on the list. Yet somehow, the few minor things I'd asked myself to do today... remain undone. I tried to make myself work out today... I lasted all of ten minutes. Then I ordered pizza for dinner and proceeded to eat 3/4 of it. A large chicken broccoli alfredo pizza. At least I talked myself out of the side of fries I was craving. But FIVE hours later, I'm still ridiculously full. I suppose all the water I'm drinking contributes to that... but still.
It's like I'm becoming all the things I always criticized my parents for. God, soon I'll be sitting on the couch with a five quart pail of ice cream and a spoon, shushing people for talking during my tv shows. Napping in front of the tv, waking only to complain if someone changed the channel or was too loud. Oh, and let's not forget the constant sitting... and snacking... and general building an oversized self. Ugh.
I refuse to let that be me.
Bright note: the earphones that Kevin bought me arrived today - much more comfortable than the ones that come with the iPod, and stay in my ears better too. And he called me tonight. He's having a good time... hiking in the desert... hanging in hotel hot tubs and drinking... just enjoying some new scenery. I have to admit, though, that with both him and Kelly away, I feel like I'm on sort of a mini-vacation myself. Everything is just so much more relaxed than usual, because there's really no one else to even think about.
Oh, another interesting tidbit: Jimmy called me last night. Apparently he'll be headed out soon on a ship again for a six month tour of the world, primarily humanitarian relief stuff this time. And he's hoping to come visit me for a couple days next week. It'd be cool to see him. It's been years.
Alright, the most important goals for tomorrow:
1) 45-60 min. walk outdoors (with shuffle and new earphones!)
2) Pilates/yoga combo dvd
3) Finish and submit the 3 job apps I've started
4) Complete 2 online tutorials for MS Office
5) Make appt. for a haircut
I think I'm going to try to limit my posts this week. Still each day - probably twice a day. But shorter than they've been. Skipping the self-analysis and rambling... focusing instead on action. List of important goals for the day, and report on my efforts. I want to see if this helps me focus my energy as well. Instead of overthinking and dwelling on stuff, I'm hoping to just DO things more readily. I want to create some new patterns for myself, because the old ones are pathetic.
Monday = Frustrating Day!
Monday started off well and had some good moments but the two things on my agenda, the two things I had to do but was looking forward to doing ended up being a little aggravating!
A college friend and I have been going back and forth for a couple months about getting together for beers. Last week he told me that he had today off. I emailed on Thursday about picking a time and place. He never replied. So, I figured we weren't meeting up. I got up 9, did some stuff around the house, read...didn't shower or anything, no rush...except he calls at 11:30 wanting to meet at 12:30 at a place that's at least a 20 minute drive for me. He mentioned dinner instead but I had a date with cycle class so I said I'd haul ass and meet him anyway. It turned out okay but it was annoying to have to get ready that fast.
Anyway, after lunch I came home, did some clean up and took the sheets and towels to the laundromat (hence previous post and the creepy talking lady). Came home, put away clean stuff, watched some tv, made some phone calls and left to go to the gym.
The summer fitness class schedule starts today and cycle class was moved 1/2 hour, from 6 to 6:30. I was a little paranoid that someone somewhere wouldn't get the message so I confirmed every which way I could; I even called the group fitness director who confirmed 6:30 start. Except...when I walked into the cycle room at 6:15 CLASS WAS ALREADY GOING. Apparently, instructor Tim really didn't get the message. And fitness director was teaching a class so I couldn't let him know about the mix-up either. Ugh. Is it really that hard to let instructors know about schedule changes? Apparently yes. I'm not really mad but it is my fav cardio (well, only cardio) workout for the week and I still want to find away to confirm it doesn't happen next week. I thought I had the director's email address but I don't...might have to track him down tomorrow when I go to yoga. Ugh. Again.
Now I'm home. Consoling myself with tortilla chips and NCIS reruns because Michael Weatherly always makes me feel better. I should probably work out but...I've lost my motivation now. I haven't done any exercise since Yoga on Thursday.
Friday was a disaster. I'd taken Tylenol with Codeine around 4 when I woke up with a toothache. I was still feeling some side effects over 12 hours later. Nothing bad, just a general overall body lightness and total lack of energy. So, I accomplished nothing.
Saturday I was up by 9 and at noon went to my brother's. He wanted me to let his dog out while he was gone all day but his roommates were home (something he didn't check) so I was not needed. I ended up hanging out over there and had a couple beers with them. Random but an enjoyable afternoon. On the way home, I stopped at Target for some items and found Top Gun on dvd for $7.50. I was halfway through it (and had made significant progress on the puzzle I'd started last week) when my friend Rachel texted me, looking for a partner in crime for a night out. We went to Bonfire on Grand Avenue for the dueling pianos and, when we'd gotten sufficiently toasted and obnoxious, we went to the Wild Onion to dance. We just forgot that we actually hate that place. It's filled (and I mean that literally; you can hardly move) with college kids and some of them are pretty skeevy. Alas, I was home by 2:30 and asleep by 3:30 but I still got up at 9.
I just didn't stay up for long. I napped off and on and stayed in my pjs ALL day. I wasn't hungover just...bored. So, thing productive done yesterday either.
Which brings us to today. I'm going to go back to my chips and salsa and try to work up the groove to do something exercise related at 8.
Wish me luck!
A college friend and I have been going back and forth for a couple months about getting together for beers. Last week he told me that he had today off. I emailed on Thursday about picking a time and place. He never replied. So, I figured we weren't meeting up. I got up 9, did some stuff around the house, read...didn't shower or anything, no rush...except he calls at 11:30 wanting to meet at 12:30 at a place that's at least a 20 minute drive for me. He mentioned dinner instead but I had a date with cycle class so I said I'd haul ass and meet him anyway. It turned out okay but it was annoying to have to get ready that fast.
Anyway, after lunch I came home, did some clean up and took the sheets and towels to the laundromat (hence previous post and the creepy talking lady). Came home, put away clean stuff, watched some tv, made some phone calls and left to go to the gym.
The summer fitness class schedule starts today and cycle class was moved 1/2 hour, from 6 to 6:30. I was a little paranoid that someone somewhere wouldn't get the message so I confirmed every which way I could; I even called the group fitness director who confirmed 6:30 start. Except...when I walked into the cycle room at 6:15 CLASS WAS ALREADY GOING. Apparently, instructor Tim really didn't get the message. And fitness director was teaching a class so I couldn't let him know about the mix-up either. Ugh. Is it really that hard to let instructors know about schedule changes? Apparently yes. I'm not really mad but it is my fav cardio (well, only cardio) workout for the week and I still want to find away to confirm it doesn't happen next week. I thought I had the director's email address but I don't...might have to track him down tomorrow when I go to yoga. Ugh. Again.
Now I'm home. Consoling myself with tortilla chips and NCIS reruns because Michael Weatherly always makes me feel better. I should probably work out but...I've lost my motivation now. I haven't done any exercise since Yoga on Thursday.
Friday was a disaster. I'd taken Tylenol with Codeine around 4 when I woke up with a toothache. I was still feeling some side effects over 12 hours later. Nothing bad, just a general overall body lightness and total lack of energy. So, I accomplished nothing.
Saturday I was up by 9 and at noon went to my brother's. He wanted me to let his dog out while he was gone all day but his roommates were home (something he didn't check) so I was not needed. I ended up hanging out over there and had a couple beers with them. Random but an enjoyable afternoon. On the way home, I stopped at Target for some items and found Top Gun on dvd for $7.50. I was halfway through it (and had made significant progress on the puzzle I'd started last week) when my friend Rachel texted me, looking for a partner in crime for a night out. We went to Bonfire on Grand Avenue for the dueling pianos and, when we'd gotten sufficiently toasted and obnoxious, we went to the Wild Onion to dance. We just forgot that we actually hate that place. It's filled (and I mean that literally; you can hardly move) with college kids and some of them are pretty skeevy. Alas, I was home by 2:30 and asleep by 3:30 but I still got up at 9.
I just didn't stay up for long. I napped off and on and stayed in my pjs ALL day. I wasn't hungover just...bored. So, thing productive done yesterday either.
Which brings us to today. I'm going to go back to my chips and salsa and try to work up the groove to do something exercise related at 8.
Wish me luck!
Alive!
Yes, I'm alive. Sorry I've been such a bad blogging friend lately. I started a post on Friday but didn't finish. I was actually mildly and spontaneously busy on Saturday and was recovering from a night out most of yesterday. I promise a longer post later!
I'm currently at the laundrymat...laundromat? Not sure. But its 2 blocks from the apt and while it costs more than the apt facilities, its easier to do big loads, like sheets and towels. I'm taking my clothes up north though to wash at parents/cabin. But no sense in bringing a ton up with me.
This place is surprisingly un-skanky for a laundry place though there is this weird lady who kept talking to herself (me?) about her stuff in the dryer that wasn't dry. Was creepy. Thankgoodness for ipod!
TBC later today...
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Mixed Weekend
I was a little proud of myself on Saturday. I kept myself busy, got some things done, and spent my downtime having dinner on the waterfront with Courtenay. Did errands (walking all over Allston), hit up the library, cleaned up the house a bit, prepped resume and cover letters for a few more publishing-related jobs, did some laundry, worked out, read a bit... and then went out. :-)
Today, however, has been a very different story. Why do I feel like I'm somehow on an every-other-day schedule? Odd. And irritating. Slept in late (despite not being up THAT late). And even knowing that today was by far the nicest day in the forecast for the next week, I spent all day in my apartment, lazing on the couch and watching tv, napping with the cat, reading a book... basically doing nothing. (Side note: have you seen TLC's show about women who didn't know they were pregnant and then give birth? It's kind of freaky.) At one point in the evening I did get up and change my comfy pants for jeans... but then decided to order chinese instead of going somewhere to get food.
Now, for no good reason, it's after 3am and I'm still wide awake. Well, it's probably because I expended almost NO energy today. I'm debating with myself over whether to try to sleep soon. Because I run the risk of sleeping way late again... and setting an ugly pattern for myself. If I just stay up, I'll be exhausted... and let's face it, with nothing to keep me busy, I'll probably nap half of Monday away. Ideally, I'd like to go to bed now and make myself get up at like 7 or 8. Just not sure that's realistic.
Anyway, I'm off to either try to sleep or plan out some things to do this week. Or watch some awful middle of the night television. Ergh.
Hope you ladies are well! Happy new week to you!
Today, however, has been a very different story. Why do I feel like I'm somehow on an every-other-day schedule? Odd. And irritating. Slept in late (despite not being up THAT late). And even knowing that today was by far the nicest day in the forecast for the next week, I spent all day in my apartment, lazing on the couch and watching tv, napping with the cat, reading a book... basically doing nothing. (Side note: have you seen TLC's show about women who didn't know they were pregnant and then give birth? It's kind of freaky.) At one point in the evening I did get up and change my comfy pants for jeans... but then decided to order chinese instead of going somewhere to get food.
Now, for no good reason, it's after 3am and I'm still wide awake. Well, it's probably because I expended almost NO energy today. I'm debating with myself over whether to try to sleep soon. Because I run the risk of sleeping way late again... and setting an ugly pattern for myself. If I just stay up, I'll be exhausted... and let's face it, with nothing to keep me busy, I'll probably nap half of Monday away. Ideally, I'd like to go to bed now and make myself get up at like 7 or 8. Just not sure that's realistic.
Anyway, I'm off to either try to sleep or plan out some things to do this week. Or watch some awful middle of the night television. Ergh.
Hope you ladies are well! Happy new week to you!
Friday, April 3, 2009
And My Week "Alone" Begins...
Kevin left for the west coast this morning. He'll be gone until the 15th. Kelly (roommate) leaves for Antigua super early tomorrow morning and will be gone all week. So I've got the house to myself (and the cats... let's not forget the cats) but nothing really to get out and do either. My friends here all have jobs and the weather for almost the entire next week is rain and suckiness. I can definitely see myself doing a lot of pilates and yoga though. And some job searching stuff. And, hey, maybe I'll find something fun to throw in there.
Today: woke up at 5am. Yes, you read that correctly. I drove Kevin and Nate to the airport. Came home and was a little wired from my coffee, so I sat down to work on my cover letters. Made some good progress until I realized I was starving. Made breakfast, sat down in front of the Today show.... and zzzzzzzzzzzzz. I spent a long long long chunk of the day asleep on the couch. Got up around 3pm. Worked a little more on cover letters and sent off two of the applications. Done and submitted. Finally. (The third one I scrapped because after reading more about the company, I realized it wouldn't be good there at all.) Watched a bit more tv this evening... Ghost Whisperer and/or Dollhouse anyone? Ha. Both cheesy... but I like them for some reason.
I never felt motivated to do any pilates or yoga today. My muscles are still sore from Ellen's ass-kicking yesterday. A good sore, but enough that I didn't want to strain anything. And my feeling tired flowed nicely into that logic. Heh. And the thunderstorm, while I love that sound, does not entice me to go for a walk.
Tomorrow's got some possibility. Both for a nice enough portion of the day for a walk, some good pilates/yoga time, and maybe some job apps. But if I get to the job apps on Sunday, I'll feel good with that, too. Hopefully I'm having dinner with my dear Courtenay tomorrow as well. She's a fabulous friend here who I don't see nearly enough.
To Ana: about your comment that Krissie and I write a lot here... keep in mind you're dealing with two people who think too much and have nothing to occupy our time. Hehe. It's not about how much is written, or even how often for that matter... just getting on here and writing a few comments about where you're at, wherever that is, and what kind of kick in the pants you might need... I'm finding it's helpful.
Today: woke up at 5am. Yes, you read that correctly. I drove Kevin and Nate to the airport. Came home and was a little wired from my coffee, so I sat down to work on my cover letters. Made some good progress until I realized I was starving. Made breakfast, sat down in front of the Today show.... and zzzzzzzzzzzzz. I spent a long long long chunk of the day asleep on the couch. Got up around 3pm. Worked a little more on cover letters and sent off two of the applications. Done and submitted. Finally. (The third one I scrapped because after reading more about the company, I realized it wouldn't be good there at all.) Watched a bit more tv this evening... Ghost Whisperer and/or Dollhouse anyone? Ha. Both cheesy... but I like them for some reason.
I never felt motivated to do any pilates or yoga today. My muscles are still sore from Ellen's ass-kicking yesterday. A good sore, but enough that I didn't want to strain anything. And my feeling tired flowed nicely into that logic. Heh. And the thunderstorm, while I love that sound, does not entice me to go for a walk.
Tomorrow's got some possibility. Both for a nice enough portion of the day for a walk, some good pilates/yoga time, and maybe some job apps. But if I get to the job apps on Sunday, I'll feel good with that, too. Hopefully I'm having dinner with my dear Courtenay tomorrow as well. She's a fabulous friend here who I don't see nearly enough.
To Ana: about your comment that Krissie and I write a lot here... keep in mind you're dealing with two people who think too much and have nothing to occupy our time. Hehe. It's not about how much is written, or even how often for that matter... just getting on here and writing a few comments about where you're at, wherever that is, and what kind of kick in the pants you might need... I'm finding it's helpful.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Betty Crocker is (almost) back, biatches!
See, I made coffee this afternoon. But having good, straight up coffee (not a latte or anything) always makes me long for donuts or coffee cake. Pretty sure I was a cop in another life. Thus, I got the urge so I made some cinnamon streusel muffins. They were...are pretty tasty. Not perfect; my Betty skills need some refreshing but this was good practice. Besides, the fact that I had all the ingredients on hand goes a long way to making me happy.
Anyway, taking a trip in the way-back machine to this morning...
I was up and OUT OF BED at 9. I had my eggos and smoothie and sat on the couch with my book. I really thought about going back to bed but I knew I wanted to make it to noon yoga. So, around 10:30 I did some chores and got ready and went to class. It is only an hour on Thursdays but it was plenty, esp after last night.
After class, I found the library. Got my card and some stuff. Four CDs--two Frank Sinatra, one Louis Armstrong and one Billie Holliday (thanks to my latest obessesion with jazz). A book too--Under the Banner of Heaven. I own a copy but I loaned it to someone when we were friends last year but we aren't friends anymore because she is a psycho self-centered moron and it's not worth dealing with her to get it back.
(Side note: Ana knows this person but for Gwen's sake...this girl thought she was bi for awhile but broke up with her girlfriend to be with this guy who she'd been stringing along as a "friend." He is totally in love with her and refuses to see any of her faults. Bottom line, I'm no longer friends with either of them. But the best part? Her bi-ex-gf decided to prostitute herself out on Craigslist and got preggers! Seriously. I couldn't make this stuff up.)
After library, I went to the post office (stamps) and Jimmy Johns (lunch). They are right by each other and it was nice, albeit brief and windy, stroll across the parking lot between the two.
I at my sandwich at home and laid down on the couch after...tired...but I was so cold! So I took a hot bath and made the coffee. Which brings me to the beginning of the post and the muffins. :)
Yes, more gym clothes is a must for me. When you have to wash out one of your two sports bras and two of your four pairs of workout capris in your kitchen sink so you can keep going to the gym without doing an entire load of laundry...you need more stuff. In my defense, I have worked out five days in a row this week. Since I only re-wear bras (never shorts, pants, tees or tanks) you can see my problem. I think another bra and pair of capris should do it. However, I'm not investing in another pair of padded cycling shorts because I only go to spinning once a week. I prefer the underwire sports bras (necessary when you are, um, well endowed) but Target and most department stores don't sell them. It requires a trip to a running store or the like. It's on the list to look for whenever Ana and I make our trip for new shoes. Maybe this weekend? Hint hint A...I promise not to spontaneously go out of town for the whole weekend this time!
As for my mom...it's a strange relationship. We do things together...dinner, gym occassionally, shop. But it's still very much a mother-daughter relationship. We don't talk about guys or shop for clothes. Instead we talk about the family and general things. I have a friend who wants her mom in the delivery room when she gives birth. Umm...ewww. No thanks. My mom and I will never be like that. NEVER.We aren't friends. That would be awkward because she's my mom.
In the spirit of our discussion on volunteering, I've signed up to do some. It's two hours next Tuesday night sorting food donated to the food bank. It's a UW alumni thing but I'm going by myself (read: I'm not going with a friend although it's possible I'll know someone there). I'm headed up north on Wednesday for Easter weekend and to help my mom work on refinishing her kitchen cabinets (for pay, of course). I'm letting you in advance that I'll try to blog via email but I can't promise I'll have anything awesome to report.
Alas, I've reached the point of the day where I'm bored. I've done all the things I planned to and have no other pressing obligations or places to go. Gwen, I wish we lived in the same place! We could play games or something lame that's free, you know? In the meantime, I have no idea what I'm going to do. I can't play a game with myself. Oops. "That's what she said." Anyone have suggestions? I mean, if I don't come up with anything, I might actually watch the final episode of ER which would suck. Though it might be worth it just to make sure it is well and truly dies, you know?
For reals, guys. I'm bored!
k.
PS-Gwen, I will be on your butt tomorrow about those job apps. I will txt you and email you and blog you and call you until you hate me!!!!
Anyway, taking a trip in the way-back machine to this morning...
I was up and OUT OF BED at 9. I had my eggos and smoothie and sat on the couch with my book. I really thought about going back to bed but I knew I wanted to make it to noon yoga. So, around 10:30 I did some chores and got ready and went to class. It is only an hour on Thursdays but it was plenty, esp after last night.
After class, I found the library. Got my card and some stuff. Four CDs--two Frank Sinatra, one Louis Armstrong and one Billie Holliday (thanks to my latest obessesion with jazz). A book too--Under the Banner of Heaven. I own a copy but I loaned it to someone when we were friends last year but we aren't friends anymore because she is a psycho self-centered moron and it's not worth dealing with her to get it back.
(Side note: Ana knows this person but for Gwen's sake...this girl thought she was bi for awhile but broke up with her girlfriend to be with this guy who she'd been stringing along as a "friend." He is totally in love with her and refuses to see any of her faults. Bottom line, I'm no longer friends with either of them. But the best part? Her bi-ex-gf decided to prostitute herself out on Craigslist and got preggers! Seriously. I couldn't make this stuff up.)
After library, I went to the post office (stamps) and Jimmy Johns (lunch). They are right by each other and it was nice, albeit brief and windy, stroll across the parking lot between the two.
I at my sandwich at home and laid down on the couch after...tired...but I was so cold! So I took a hot bath and made the coffee. Which brings me to the beginning of the post and the muffins. :)
Yes, more gym clothes is a must for me. When you have to wash out one of your two sports bras and two of your four pairs of workout capris in your kitchen sink so you can keep going to the gym without doing an entire load of laundry...you need more stuff. In my defense, I have worked out five days in a row this week. Since I only re-wear bras (never shorts, pants, tees or tanks) you can see my problem. I think another bra and pair of capris should do it. However, I'm not investing in another pair of padded cycling shorts because I only go to spinning once a week. I prefer the underwire sports bras (necessary when you are, um, well endowed) but Target and most department stores don't sell them. It requires a trip to a running store or the like. It's on the list to look for whenever Ana and I make our trip for new shoes. Maybe this weekend? Hint hint A...I promise not to spontaneously go out of town for the whole weekend this time!
As for my mom...it's a strange relationship. We do things together...dinner, gym occassionally, shop. But it's still very much a mother-daughter relationship. We don't talk about guys or shop for clothes. Instead we talk about the family and general things. I have a friend who wants her mom in the delivery room when she gives birth. Umm...ewww. No thanks. My mom and I will never be like that. NEVER.We aren't friends. That would be awkward because she's my mom.
In the spirit of our discussion on volunteering, I've signed up to do some. It's two hours next Tuesday night sorting food donated to the food bank. It's a UW alumni thing but I'm going by myself (read: I'm not going with a friend although it's possible I'll know someone there). I'm headed up north on Wednesday for Easter weekend and to help my mom work on refinishing her kitchen cabinets (for pay, of course). I'm letting you in advance that I'll try to blog via email but I can't promise I'll have anything awesome to report.
Alas, I've reached the point of the day where I'm bored. I've done all the things I planned to and have no other pressing obligations or places to go. Gwen, I wish we lived in the same place! We could play games or something lame that's free, you know? In the meantime, I have no idea what I'm going to do. I can't play a game with myself. Oops. "That's what she said." Anyone have suggestions? I mean, if I don't come up with anything, I might actually watch the final episode of ER which would suck. Though it might be worth it just to make sure it is well and truly dies, you know?
For reals, guys. I'm bored!
k.
PS-Gwen, I will be on your butt tomorrow about those job apps. I will txt you and email you and blog you and call you until you hate me!!!!
Body Feeling Good
Ellen Barrett has kicked my ass, again. Different DVD this time - Self Magazine's Bikini Ready Fast. Oh, man. Could definitely not do all the reps of everything, especially with weights in my hands, but kept pushing and was able to do most of it, including the "bonus" ab workout. Oh, and I also did Sara Ivanhoe's 20-Minute Yoga Makeover: Weight Loss. And she killed me too. I love how my body feels today. I might get a bit sore... Ellen definitely worked some muscles that have been, um, dormant to say the least.
Went for a walk... but a bit shorter than planned. The Boston weather forecasters were somehow wrong again. Grrr. The sun never materialized over the city, so the temps never got up where they were supposed to be. It's warm enough... but not lovely.
The down side of my day? With no adequate or rational explanation from myself... and really, no silly explanation either, because there just is no excuse... I have once again NOT worked on my job apps. This means that for all my excitement on Monday over finding three EdAsst positions open, and preparing my resume, I have still not applied. Again, I am asking myself WTF?!
At the same time, I know I could do it right now. But Kevin's headed off in the morning for a two-week "man-trip" to the west coast. So instead of doing the apps, I'm going over there to hang out. Hmm... Not the most productive behavior. But I am saying right now... as out loud as a blog can get: I WILL COMPLETE AND SUBMIT THEM ON FRIDAY! I am going to Kevin's on that condition. So there, me. Take that.
On another note - Krissie, I also need more gym clothes! Sports bras, especially. I have one! How did that happen? Oh, and I'm making plans for when I WILL join the YMCA. No more excuses on that front either. As soon as my financial rearrangement all goes through, I will join. I will go to classses. I will learn how to use the machines in the gym.
BTW - I think it's awesome that you can hang out with your mom and do stuff... including go to the gym together. My mom would never. In fact, hanging out one on one with her is nearly impossible, and if it happens it's either me rambling on and on, or silence. God, I'm glad I'll have Kevin with me when I visit this summer. And that she'll be preoccupied with her new grandchild. Heh.
Anyway, I'm using long-distance telepathy to send you girls my love and encouragement in whatever you're hoping to accomplish today! TTFN!
Went for a walk... but a bit shorter than planned. The Boston weather forecasters were somehow wrong again. Grrr. The sun never materialized over the city, so the temps never got up where they were supposed to be. It's warm enough... but not lovely.
The down side of my day? With no adequate or rational explanation from myself... and really, no silly explanation either, because there just is no excuse... I have once again NOT worked on my job apps. This means that for all my excitement on Monday over finding three EdAsst positions open, and preparing my resume, I have still not applied. Again, I am asking myself WTF?!
At the same time, I know I could do it right now. But Kevin's headed off in the morning for a two-week "man-trip" to the west coast. So instead of doing the apps, I'm going over there to hang out. Hmm... Not the most productive behavior. But I am saying right now... as out loud as a blog can get: I WILL COMPLETE AND SUBMIT THEM ON FRIDAY! I am going to Kevin's on that condition. So there, me. Take that.
On another note - Krissie, I also need more gym clothes! Sports bras, especially. I have one! How did that happen? Oh, and I'm making plans for when I WILL join the YMCA. No more excuses on that front either. As soon as my financial rearrangement all goes through, I will join. I will go to classses. I will learn how to use the machines in the gym.
BTW - I think it's awesome that you can hang out with your mom and do stuff... including go to the gym together. My mom would never. In fact, hanging out one on one with her is nearly impossible, and if it happens it's either me rambling on and on, or silence. God, I'm glad I'll have Kevin with me when I visit this summer. And that she'll be preoccupied with her new grandchild. Heh.
Anyway, I'm using long-distance telepathy to send you girls my love and encouragement in whatever you're hoping to accomplish today! TTFN!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I need more gym clothes. And new shoes!
Hmmm. My Wednesday was not very exciting.
I remember waking up around 5--with a full bladder and empty stomach. After taking care of both, I went back to sleep. I woke up a few more times before actually getting up for brunch at noon. After that...I think I went back to sleep. I got up (and stayed up) around 2ish. Made a smoothie, had some chips and salsa, took a shower.
My dad's out of town this week and when he's gone I usually end up doing something with my mom. Tonight I took her to an hour long strength training class at my gym. It's a full-body/nearly every muscle group workout with weights, stability ball, exercise bands...lots of stuff. I've learned I'm one of those people who goes "all-out" at a gym class; if I made the effort to be there, I may as well take advantage and kick my own ass. Anyway, the positive consequence is a killer workout. The negative consequence is really, really sweaty gym clothes. Seriously. When I changed into my regular bra and clean (dry!) t-shirt...I think my workout shirt could have rivaled a guy's. And I'm a little nervous about how I'm going to feel tomorrow. Fingers crossed my muscles can handle noon yoga.
After gym, my mom took me out to dinner. I heart Mongolian barbecue. I'm sure it's not the healthiest but since I can build my own meal with the meat and veggies, at least I have some control. I stopped at Caribou on my way home for a latte mostly because I was freezing (the other workout consequence). But since I rarely drink coffee anymore and it was nearly 9, I opted for decaf. I know...me? Order decaf? I don't think I've ever done that before. Ever.
I got home in time to watch the season premiere of Reno 911 (hilar) and the Daily Show. Jon Stewart's guest tonight gave me more hard evidence that I'm a nerd. I mean, I don't know too many other people watching who would know who Peter Orszag is or what OMB is before the show. Sadly, I did and even sadder, I was really excited to see him.
Alas, despite my many hours of sleep, workout kicked my butt and I'm exhausto. Tomorrow's plans include yoga and the library. I did all the things I wanted to on Tuesday (pork chops, job search, request unemployment) so I'm kind of out of pressing agenda items. I should have the new James Bond via Netflix by the weekend though. Woot!
I remember waking up around 5--with a full bladder and empty stomach. After taking care of both, I went back to sleep. I woke up a few more times before actually getting up for brunch at noon. After that...I think I went back to sleep. I got up (and stayed up) around 2ish. Made a smoothie, had some chips and salsa, took a shower.
My dad's out of town this week and when he's gone I usually end up doing something with my mom. Tonight I took her to an hour long strength training class at my gym. It's a full-body/nearly every muscle group workout with weights, stability ball, exercise bands...lots of stuff. I've learned I'm one of those people who goes "all-out" at a gym class; if I made the effort to be there, I may as well take advantage and kick my own ass. Anyway, the positive consequence is a killer workout. The negative consequence is really, really sweaty gym clothes. Seriously. When I changed into my regular bra and clean (dry!) t-shirt...I think my workout shirt could have rivaled a guy's. And I'm a little nervous about how I'm going to feel tomorrow. Fingers crossed my muscles can handle noon yoga.
After gym, my mom took me out to dinner. I heart Mongolian barbecue. I'm sure it's not the healthiest but since I can build my own meal with the meat and veggies, at least I have some control. I stopped at Caribou on my way home for a latte mostly because I was freezing (the other workout consequence). But since I rarely drink coffee anymore and it was nearly 9, I opted for decaf. I know...me? Order decaf? I don't think I've ever done that before. Ever.
I got home in time to watch the season premiere of Reno 911 (hilar) and the Daily Show. Jon Stewart's guest tonight gave me more hard evidence that I'm a nerd. I mean, I don't know too many other people watching who would know who Peter Orszag is or what OMB is before the show. Sadly, I did and even sadder, I was really excited to see him.
Alas, despite my many hours of sleep, workout kicked my butt and I'm exhausto. Tomorrow's plans include yoga and the library. I did all the things I wanted to on Tuesday (pork chops, job search, request unemployment) so I'm kind of out of pressing agenda items. I should have the new James Bond via Netflix by the weekend though. Woot!
Took Me All Day...
To do ONE of the things on my list. I was so close to not doing any of them. I don't really know what I was thinking. And the thing is, it wasn't the feeling overwhelmed and zoning out of the world until the day disappears thing - like is has so many times in the past. Today it was very conscious. A deliberate choice to sit my ass on the couch with a blanket and catch up on what the DVR had recorded the last few days. WTF?!
I had a desire to get up and work out. I knew I needed to. I knew how good it would feel. I knew I didn't want to have to post that I did nothing today. Heh. One of the shows I watched was last night's Biggest Loser - and one of the contestants now weighs less than I do. And there's still eight people on it! That felt like a kick in the pants for me. Except... for no rational reason, I chose to continue with my ass planted through another couple hours of shows. And while I was sitting there, I was just like, why am I here? Why am I not working out? I want to. I need to. I am able to. What is stopping me. And the answer is so simple its infuriating: I just wasn't doing what I needed/wanted to do. Straight up lazy. God, I frustrate myself sometimes.
Finally, though, I was just fed up with my inner monologue, and trying to silence it. I hadn't showered yet because I was putting it off till after my workout. But before I go to Kevin's for LOST, a shower would be needed. So finally at 7pm I pulled myself up, lit some candles, rolled out my mat and put in the freaking DVD. And it kicked my ass. And I sweated up a storm. And my muscles shook. And now, after a shower, I feel good.
What was I putting off? Feeling like I can do what I need and want to do? That's ridiculous behavior. I want to remember how baffling and aggravated I am with that side of me that stayed on the couch so long today. Because there's no point in doing anything that side of me wants to do. That is the side that doesn't want good things for me... and you know what? I don't want it anymore.
Anyway, didn't do the walk or job stuff I said I would do today. But I will try again tomorrow. And it will not take me until it's dark outside to move my ass. As of now, all three intentions for tomorrow are the same as I posted for today. Walk, pilates/yoga dvd, and cover letters done. I'm calling myself out here. It's good that today I felt like my actions were entirely deliberate, and my own choice. But I made the wrong choice for too many hours.
I had a desire to get up and work out. I knew I needed to. I knew how good it would feel. I knew I didn't want to have to post that I did nothing today. Heh. One of the shows I watched was last night's Biggest Loser - and one of the contestants now weighs less than I do. And there's still eight people on it! That felt like a kick in the pants for me. Except... for no rational reason, I chose to continue with my ass planted through another couple hours of shows. And while I was sitting there, I was just like, why am I here? Why am I not working out? I want to. I need to. I am able to. What is stopping me. And the answer is so simple its infuriating: I just wasn't doing what I needed/wanted to do. Straight up lazy. God, I frustrate myself sometimes.
Finally, though, I was just fed up with my inner monologue, and trying to silence it. I hadn't showered yet because I was putting it off till after my workout. But before I go to Kevin's for LOST, a shower would be needed. So finally at 7pm I pulled myself up, lit some candles, rolled out my mat and put in the freaking DVD. And it kicked my ass. And I sweated up a storm. And my muscles shook. And now, after a shower, I feel good.
What was I putting off? Feeling like I can do what I need and want to do? That's ridiculous behavior. I want to remember how baffling and aggravated I am with that side of me that stayed on the couch so long today. Because there's no point in doing anything that side of me wants to do. That is the side that doesn't want good things for me... and you know what? I don't want it anymore.
Anyway, didn't do the walk or job stuff I said I would do today. But I will try again tomorrow. And it will not take me until it's dark outside to move my ass. As of now, all three intentions for tomorrow are the same as I posted for today. Walk, pilates/yoga dvd, and cover letters done. I'm calling myself out here. It's good that today I felt like my actions were entirely deliberate, and my own choice. But I made the wrong choice for too many hours.
Reassessing... BOO to the Clouds that came early!
Heh, my excuse for not going to the gym is that I don't have a gym membership. :-P
I know, however, that I should get one. The YMCA near my old house is nice, and they have a bunch of good yoga classes at good times, other interesting classes I could try, and rather long hours for the gym in general. It's on my list of things to do. I've never worked out in a gym though. Seriously. Since gym class in school, I've almost never done any exercise when another person was around. Hmm... I need to get over myself there.
Anyway, today's walk is now up in the air... because it's colder than they forcasted since the clouds rolled in way early. Boo!! Boo, I say! I may still go... but I may decide to just do a longer DVD. But I'm still committed to some kind of workout and getting those EdAsst apps finished!
For now, breakfast and therapy at 11. Gotta love the Wednesday.
I know, however, that I should get one. The YMCA near my old house is nice, and they have a bunch of good yoga classes at good times, other interesting classes I could try, and rather long hours for the gym in general. It's on my list of things to do. I've never worked out in a gym though. Seriously. Since gym class in school, I've almost never done any exercise when another person was around. Hmm... I need to get over myself there.
Anyway, today's walk is now up in the air... because it's colder than they forcasted since the clouds rolled in way early. Boo!! Boo, I say! I may still go... but I may decide to just do a longer DVD. But I'm still committed to some kind of workout and getting those EdAsst apps finished!
For now, breakfast and therapy at 11. Gotta love the Wednesday.
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